I'm here!!!!!!!

Who'd've thunk it??!! I'm right now in College Station, about to embark on a new chapter of my life as a doctoral student at Texas A&M University.

Things have been crazy, lonely and calm here at the same time. The loneliest time of all is at night when I feel extremely alone. It's not just the people because I'm alone at night too in Melaka. It is more the absence of the familiar, in my case. My room here is comfortable enough. It has an attached bathroom all for me and a huge closet... bigger than my bathroom if you can believe it. But it is not mine... not really or not yet anyway. I don't have any sense of belonging attached to them. It feels impersonal and unfamiliar. I miss my pillows, my comforter, my DVDs, my books, my internet connection and my noisy A/C if it makes any sense.

Night time is usually my time to recharge and reflect but I cannot seem to relax since I can't get over the unfamiliarity of my surroundings. Last night was the worst night ever. Not even in the midst of the drama last week did I feel that alone. Was it just last week? It felt like a lifetime ago.

Funnily enough, I don't miss my car... isn't that weird?