Al Fatihah

Today is a day of reflections. I don't know how much got done though because everything is out of sort. A work colleague just passed away on saturday. Got to know today.

It's so darned random. She's so young.. 26-27 left a husband and a 2 year old daughter. Plus she's really nice. I was asking myself how come the nice ones are gone while the assholes are still around.

I guess for the rest of us, it's carpe diem all the way coz you don't know when your turn will come. If we have done what we are supposed to do. I do believe that each of us has a part to play in this world before we die. Am I doing what i'm supposed to do?

I remember her as a very nice person and a pleasure to be around with. She always has a smile for everyone. I feel a little odd and guilty at the same time because I didn't visit her when she was ill. I'd rather remember her like she was before. Before all the chemo and everything. They kept telling me that I should go and visit her as the doctors said that she only have 4 months to live. Because I'm not very close to her, I feel that if I were in her position, I'd rather spend whatever little time I have left with my family so I didn't go.

If that were me, how would people remember me? How would you remember me if that was me who died on Saturday?

How self-absorbed is that, other people die and all I can think of is myself. A valid question in my head, though.

That's two deaths in my life this year and it's just barely started. What if that was me? What do I leave behind and how would people remember me if I were to die today?

Al-Fatihah. May she rests in peace and may God bless her soul.