I'm here!!!!!!!
Who'd've thunk it??!! I'm right now in College Station, about to embark on a new chapter of my life as a doctoral student at Texas A&M University.
Things have been crazy, lonely and calm here at the same time. The loneliest time of all is at night when I feel extremely alone. It's not just the people because I'm alone at night too in Melaka. It is more the absence of the familiar, in my case. My room here is comfortable enough. It has an attached bathroom all for me and a huge closet... bigger than my bathroom if you can believe it. But it is not mine... not really or not yet anyway. I don't have any sense of belonging attached to them. It feels impersonal and unfamiliar. I miss my pillows, my comforter, my DVDs, my books, my internet connection and my noisy A/C if it makes any sense.
Night time is usually my time to recharge and reflect but I cannot seem to relax since I can't get over the unfamiliarity of my surroundings. Last night was the worst night ever. Not even in the midst of the drama last week did I feel that alone. Was it just last week? It felt like a lifetime ago.
Funnily enough, I don't miss my car... isn't that weird?
Things have been crazy, lonely and calm here at the same time. The loneliest time of all is at night when I feel extremely alone. It's not just the people because I'm alone at night too in Melaka. It is more the absence of the familiar, in my case. My room here is comfortable enough. It has an attached bathroom all for me and a huge closet... bigger than my bathroom if you can believe it. But it is not mine... not really or not yet anyway. I don't have any sense of belonging attached to them. It feels impersonal and unfamiliar. I miss my pillows, my comforter, my DVDs, my books, my internet connection and my noisy A/C if it makes any sense.
Night time is usually my time to recharge and reflect but I cannot seem to relax since I can't get over the unfamiliarity of my surroundings. Last night was the worst night ever. Not even in the midst of the drama last week did I feel that alone. Was it just last week? It felt like a lifetime ago.
Funnily enough, I don't miss my car... isn't that weird?
posted by Joy at 5:08 AM
5 Comments:
Hey there girl!!!
So you made it safely. I was wondering if you ever got there, senyap sunyi teruss... So liking the M&M so far?
kak anis,
good luck & all the best!
-zrett
Alang,
Agak2 wardrobe tu cukup besar tak nak menampung kami sekeluarga? Kalau muat bolehla menompang... hahahaha. Kidding :) Anyways, All the best and have fun!
Zrett -- Hi! Lama x dgr citer... :) Ingat lagi tak?
Loly! Aku pulak ingat ko yg tak ingat dah aku...will email u for updates..
Kak Anis, tumpang lalu....
engkorang ni... ntah ape2... thank you zrett. Loly, dipersilakan... memang cukup besar untuk 6 beranak kalau disusun macam anak mancis..hehehe
Nic, M&M is great. I'm going around incognito... no one knows me ... yet. Hope it stays that way for a while. My US friends says about me, "I'm chatty but you take it to another different level", "She talks to anyone". Should I take that as a compliment?
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